"Friends may come and go, but enemies accumulate."
Bloody hell! Spent one hour plus fixing up the new desktop only to get chased away by my ap brother and parents.
23 inch monitor, 4 gig ram, 640 gig hdd, nvidia g100 graphics card, and free 8 gig thumbdrive for $999. not bad la. but doesnt seem like i'm getting to use it. ever. why do i have parents who play online games -.-
my body aching like shit now. yesterday napfa for my class. even tho i didnt take the 5 items i still went and jumped like an idiot and w/e. now my back/thighs/stomach muscles aching like shit, cant even stand up without hurting like nuts.
oh ya my class so far got 3 ppl 25/25 for 5 items. caleb, kok seng and hui ming. zai la. tink i cmi for full marks
These are my projected grades: Standing broad jump - 255 cm Sit and Reach - 55 cm Shuttle Run - 10 seconds Sit-ups - 40+ Pull-ups - 7 or 8 2.4 km - 11 min+
my pull ups really cmi la. last time can do maybe 13 or 14 one, but now too heavy. gained like 20 kg over the last year or so. while the rest can still A my pull up and 2.4 drop liao. Sec 3 can run around 9.50 or sth, now probably 11 - 12 min. really nid to train la zzz. so much loose fats.
I wonder how many people have problems with seeking their own identity. After all, it is natural for people to act differently in front of different people. Person A, for example, may act high and happy in front of others but may actually be serious and/or emo when away from people.
Some people may feel that they are simply not being their "true self" when in front of people. I don't think this is the case. If you think of all those times when you were not your "true self", can you deny all the emotions you felt at that time? Can you insist that you really did not feel the way you acted at that point of time?
We obscure oursevles from ourselves for various reasons. It is hard to define that one true self. So, dont. Just live for the moment. Live for the present. Living for the future will only affect your ability to live for the present. Live on and stay happy.
and thus concludes a mindless rant. again. i'm super de-motivated now. dunno why. started reading more mangas. bad sign when i havent done pi and have upcoming tests and what not.
bowling.. zzz. i'm dam irritated with it lah. keep bowling and bowling but cannot seem to get better. i want a more reactive ball to keep up with my rev rates, but no money also. dunno lah dam sian.
my left middle finger getting worse and worse. imagine if you take a spoon, and dig out a piece of flesh. imagine then, that you pried out that piece of flesh so that it was still attached by the skin, like a hinge, leaving behind a hole. now imagine that hole being filled with pus and blood and what not, hardening up and sticking the stuck-up piece of flesh in place.
basically thats what happened to my finger now. one tiny piece of flesh jutting out, covered with pus and blood. hurting like hell despite its tiny size. and everytime i poke it i get this bitter feeling in my mouth. literally. its like tasting disgust or something.
and i found out i sometimes spasm when i sleep. like when sleeping in auditorium, suddenly arm can spasm one. dam scary, almost hit someone lol.
